Another thing that really helped was trying out for the first play I had been in for 25 years. I was in the "Nightmare on Broadway" for Payson Community Theater. At try-outs, Sam (another cute niece) and I talked for a few hours about mental and physical health and so many cool things. She had me take this test about how I felt about my body and where I store things...VERY INTERESTING...
The first 12 weeks I think the play practice and dancing and being on stage really helped me realize that exercise and moving my body felt good. I also really love to dance and sing and it was so much fun to share that time with Nathan and Steve my nephews, my brother Craig and his wife Sher, Sam and Malaina my little great niece...Hmmmm...I felt like I had some self esteem, something that I have not had much of in the last few years.
I got married in 2007 to a wonderful man named Jeff McDonald after dating for a few years. It is hard to get married when you are older. I love Jeff and he is a great guy, but we have been through a few VERY HARD YEARS. Stress got to me and I would hide things in my desk drawers to eat. It didn't help that I sit next to a big candy store in my office. I would get stressed and there was a peanut-butter snickers right there 4 feet away to make me "feel better."
I have 5 amazing children that I love dearly. They have had some battles of their own thru my divorce, melding families, some addiction problems, health problems and major surgeries and illnesses. Every time one of my children was having a hard time, I would stress, take it personally in a bad way with the way I treated my body, and it was all adding up.
I lost 23.7 pounds in that 12 weeks. I still ate sugar during that time, but I was a bit more conscious of what I put in my body, and I really stepped up the exercise.
I didn't do well over the holidays:( I am a great cook, and the treats we made for our neighbors were pretty darn good. I had my fill of sugar cookies, magic bars, buck-eyes, chocolate covered pretzels etc...wow, I just didn't feel well after I ate like that.
I am not perfect, but I am on a journey that is taking me to where I want to be. My goal weight is 135, and I would like to be there by next Christmas!
I am going to log my journey here for a help for myself, a journal, and to hopefully give some hope and advice to anyone who needs it!